Showing posts with label work stress. Show all posts
Showing posts with label work stress. Show all posts

Sunday, February 25, 2024

The Retired Consultant

 


I happened across this old post on approaching retirement today and reread it. Of course, I am biased but it holds up well.  It contains information about psychiatrists retiring that you will not see anywhere else – including why we are happy.  I currently spend much of my day doing the usual chores, exercising, and writing.  I have several writing projects going and am near completing one that is unique.

I don’t get out much and I like it that way. I am an introvert and have been subjected to the usual jokes about introversion.  The pandemic was a factor but not the only one.  I just got back from working out in a gym that has Cybex machines.  After that I went to Target to pick up a supply of blueberries and frozen burritos.   

On the way out – I stopped to get a mocha and 2 biscottis.  The barista was young and we talked about the closing time of the coffee shop relative to the store. I associated to what I was doing at that age.  I was a janitor in a dormitory. It was a thankless job.  Luckily with increasing college experience I was able to move on to more technical work as a lab and research assistant.  I wondered if she would reflect on her work as a barista when she got to be my age and I sincerely hoped she would get to my age and beyond.  I thought about writing a poem about that brief encounter, probably because I had just read two Emily Dickinson poems and have a history of writing free verse in the style of ee cummings.

On the drive home, public radio was playing election coverage from South Carolina.  It was the GOP primary and I shut it off. I always have public radio in the background – but listening to this is just too much.  I drove, drank my mocha and crunched on my biscotti in silence. I had some thoughts about biscotti.  A competitor has a much harder biscotti.  It is so hard the almonds are cut sharply with the slices.  The biscotti I was eating was not as hard but still had an almond and vanilla crunchy taste.

I started thinking about a paper I was writing. Even though it was about rhetoric, it seemed quite exciting.  I have not encountered any papers like it.  I thought about where it should be submitted and how I should modify the introduction. One of the most insightful and informative books I have read lately was about rhetoric. It tied together so many things.  The author was gracious enough to respond to two of my emails.  I need to incorporate more of his concepts into the paper – but his book is encyclopedic.

I thought about some advice I had given lately.  Even though I am retired and people know it – they still call me.  I tell them that technically I am not treating them or directly giving them medical advice because we do not have a physician patient relationship, I don’t have a working office setting or records, and I don’t have malpractice coverage.  They understand that and it doesn’t deter them.  I am licensed and recently contacted the Board of Medical Practice about continuing medical education (CME) credit reporting this summer. The pandemic created a lot of confusion about deferred CME reporting.  I need to report 75 credits and I currently have 74 with a 6 CME credit conference in March. I wonder how long I will keep that up in retirement.

On the home stretch, I think about the advice I have given people over the years.  The qualified advice on the system over the past 2 years tells me how bad things have gotten.  Parents calling me about their adult children who are not doing well.  Adult children calling me about parents who are not doing well.  The occasional email directly from a person who is dissatisfied with treatment. Many calls about what happens in emergency situations.  Many calls about what specific diagnoses, imaging findings, and labs really mean.  Was the emergency department trying to talk me out of being admitted? Why wasn’t I treated with anything?  It just seems like I sat there a long time, nothing happened, and they sent me home.  Are these side effects that I am getting from this medication and what can be done about it?  Are there any resources out there that can help me? I don’t seem to be getting any help?

I try to help people negotiate available systems and help them prioritize what should happen first.  There is a general reluctance to call their clinic or doctor and report that there are potential side effects. Overall, there is a lack of help for people with psychiatric disorders. I know that is not strictly true and that there are many large systems of psychiatric care nearby – but even when people get in - there is difficulty getting what they need. I shock them with basic information about when to call their doctor and what might be helpful to discuss.  I never second guess their doctor.  I am focused on how to help them get the answers they need.  It is not at all like practicing psychiatry.  The most valuable product of that work is a patient who feels understood at the end of the session. None of the people calling me feel understood at even a superficial level.

Just a few years ago, I was an insider working in an intense hospital environment. I was generally feeling the stress all day long. I had the physical manifestations of that stress that were measurable – but I pushed through every day and made it home to unwind.  In some cases I could not unwind and ended up calling my nursing staff at 2AM to make sure that things were going OK.  I think about that right after thinking that I should still be working – just based on all these systems problems that people are telling me about.

I come to the realization that I can’t do it anymore. Cognitively and technically it is certainly not a problem. I have no doubts that my diagnostic and treatment skills are still there. Physically it is an interesting story.  I just lifted plenty of weights and will lift more tomorrow.  My aerobic capacity is very good. I have posted some of my chronic health problems here on this blog to illustrate diagnostic, pathophysiology, and treatment concepts. So generally my health is pretty good.  That can always turn on a dime.  I can’t work anymore because of the stress response.  The mental and emotional demands of work become physical demands and that creates significant problems. Doctors reading this in those environments know what I am talking about and I wish them the best because I know nobody is trying to alleviate any of that pressure.  Nobody is trying to help them.

I finish off my mocha and biscotti as I am pulling into the driveway. It is 7PM and dark out here in Minnesota.  I had over 30 years of pulling in my driveway in the dark after work and still feeling tense and in some cases jumpy about what happened that day.  Things are different now.  I can decide how much pressure I am under and when I can unwind. I wish I could do more for all these people who need help – but I can’t. 

It is time to finally take care of myself.

 

George Dawson, MD, DFAPA


Supplementary:

@dahlle on Twitter read this post and posted the NASA Task Load Index - a workload measure that has been validated across a number of settings.  Just looking at the scales - it is easy to see how physicians can max out almost every scale except for the physical demands (at least for non-surgeons).  With enough stress - heart rate and blood pressure increase just like you are running.  

It is also an illustration of how things can get rapidly complicated when there are people actively standing in your way and other people demanding that you do more.  Work setting is critical here as well as adaptation to work.  I have talked with hospitalists who told me their cognitive performance dropped off steeply on day 6 (of 7).  On the other hand I have talked to physicians who were used to seeing 30 patients for a minute or two at a time in an afternoon who were not stressed at all. 


At least one study has established a dose response relationship between physician task load using this scale and burnout:

Harry E, Sinsky C, Dyrbye LN, Makowski MS, Trockel M, Tutty M, Carlasare LE, West CP, Shanafelt TD. Physician Task Load and the Risk of Burnout Among US Physicians in a National Survey. Jt Comm J Qual Patient Saf. 2021 Feb;47(2):76-85. doi: 10.1016/j.jcjq.2020.09.011. 


Graphics Credit:

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